Simple Thoughts Derived From A Complicated Mind

[Current Mood: Crashed Into Pieces]

Another unreplied text.

Now I start thinking that a good friend is someone who replies your text. Thanks to you.

God, I am freakin’ tired. I’m all f**ked up. My patience has been pushed to the limit, and I think I have it enough. The ball has been long enough in my court, and I’m about to kick it right now. With pride.

Give me another shit, just one more shit. And I swear, I will see you at the bitter end. Hell yeah, I will erupt. Try me.

Am I mad?

… Nope. I just broke into pieces.

I’m way too mad to be sad. Or maybe, I’m way too sad to be mad.

[taking a deep deep breath]

Sigh…

[Current Track Played : Justin Timberlake, Never Again ]

Would have given up my life for you, Guess it’s true what they say about love, it’s blind… Girl, you lied straight to my face lookin’ in my eyes. And I believed you ‘cause I loved you more than life… And all you had to do was apologize…

Sadness has me at the end of the line, Helpless watched you break this heart of mine… And loneliness only wants you back here with me. Common sense knows you’re not good enough for me. And all you had to do was apologize and mean it

But you didn’t say you’re sorry…I don’t understand. You don’t care that you hurt me; And now I’m half a man that I used to be when it was you and me You didn’t love me enough… My heart may never mend, and you’ll never get to love me

It’s like hell, I can’t go back in time. Maybe then I could see how. Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try; But it’s too late, it’s over now…

[Current Mood : Stuck In Reverse]

I used to think that love is sincere. Well, I used to do it sincerely. But I guess I was wrong. It turns out that I need something in return.

When I talked, I needed to be listened as well;

When I routinly checked someone, I wanted to be updated as well;

When I texted ‘how are you?’, I wanted to be replied with the same question;

When I put someone in my top list priorities, I wanted to be in the top list as well;

When I spare my free times, I wanted to be in your free times as well;

When I give my my best shot, I wanted to be given the best shot as well;

Those crap like that.

There will always be something that love can give in return. Unfortunately, some people just way too selfish to understand that.

[Current Track Played : Coldplay, Fix You ]

When you try your best but you don’t succeed. When you get what you want but not what you need. When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face. When you lose something you can’t replace. When you love someone but it goes to waste,
could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below. When you’re too in love to let it go.
But if you never try you’ll never know, just what you’re worth
Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down on your face, when you lose something you cannot replace.
Tears stream down your face, and I…
Tears stream down on your face. I promise you I will learn from my mistakes.
Tears stream down your face, and I…
Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones. And I will try to fix you

[Current Mood : Half-Empty, not Half-Full]

One thing that would be difficult for Piscean to deal with is moving on.  Trust me, they would love to.  Unfortunately, Piscean just love reminiscing, more than any other signs. In the end, we just find it hard to say goodbye to the best things in our life.

Well, at least I do.

I was about to erase one name from my memory.  It turned out to be a wrong decision when I realized that we shared the same friends, past and present. So, the more I tried to forget that SoaB (Son of A B***h -red), the more the name was brought to me.

That name showed up while I was hanging out and having a really good time with a long-time-no-see friend on a Saturday nite, and turned the rest of the night into a nightmare.

That name was written in the last posting of my friend’s blog, which I actually haven’t seen for a long looooong time. It was right there, right in front of my eyes, just when I decided to check the blog out again.

That SoaB picture shows up on my Friendster account every single time there’s an update on that SoaB’s account. It always ends up with me, tracking that SoaB’s account, wondering what’s new in that SoaB’s life.

Hmmmph…

I guess that SoaB knew how to make me feel miserable, by leaving a very-very deep footprints in my previous life. I guess, living is easy with your eyes and ears closed.

[Current Track Played: Lighthouse Family, Postcard From Heaven ]

If you never say goodbye to the best thing in your life, there are things you don’t appreciate at all.  So it’s best that you don’t try holding back the time. Are you ever gonna be quite satisfied.

Yea rrrrritee… New blog? Perhaps. Don’t ask me why, it just feels right.

Well, the old one still exists. God knows what differences will this new one makes. Maybe this one will represent any current mood I have. Again, it just feels right.

So, suit yourself, enjoy the ride.